how you see through.

Life is all about big picture. We tend to see every detail, piece by piece without noticing the big picture. That's why I learned for the past few days. Big picture.

Perhaps I've been living in a denial world, scarred of facing the truth. the whole truth about such things in life. It's time to face all the odds, than running away from it.

Solitude.

For the past few days I'm busy doing the technical study, as of now I'm having a bit problem in finding an English teacher who could help me proof read my papers. My past time would be reading 48 Law of Powers, which i find it really reliable in terms of applying some laws in my life. One law that I'll always bear in mind is to refrain from being isolated from others.
" The more you are in contact with others, the more graceful and at ease you become. Isolation, on the other hand, engenders and awkwardness in your gestures, and leads to further isolation, as people start avoiding you."
"Solitude is dangerous to reason, without being favorable to virtue.. Remember that the solitary mortal is certainly luxurious, probably superstitious and possibly mad." -Dr. Samuel Johnson, 1709-1784

I remembered during my first semester of my junior year, I refrain from talking to anyone, i isolate myself, prolly because during that time I was totally depress.. and yeah.. after hearing some things about me that i'm unfriendly and such, it kinda stirs my paranoia. So from that one, i started to mingle with everyone, as far as i know.. cause not only solitude makes u more depress, but also makes you out of contact with regards in the society or the latest happening.

2nd sem first week

My first week of my 2nd sem is OKAY. Most of the Prof did not showed up. Waste of TIME and MONEY. Sighs. I'm upset with him (you know who i mean), he's always LATE. I hate people whose late and not to mention lazy. Been reading this book, persuasion writing hypnosis ekekek. lol. so nothing new except new home work, new books.. hahahaha

solace

A cloudy rainy day. I can feel the wind piercing through my skin. I've been sitting here all day long, thinking how to solve my current real life problem. I don't want to share it to anyone, i just want to let it all out. Maybe through blogging, it might release some of my sadness.

I need someone who could give me a solace, peace, tranquility.


is it me? or is it a state of mind?

blah

Officially sembreak, yes!
Now the problem is.....
how can i spend my sem-break fruitfully?
That's a tough one. I mean it's like also killing 3 weeks of time.
Well.. I've decided to read tons of books (more knowledge..and its one of my relaxation type) after that well.. I have no idea. LOL.

rain drops.

The cool mist of the rain, i love it during rainy days not to mention drinking a nice hot cup of coffee. Next week will be our finals, and afterward a three week vacation. Sounds fun right? But ofcourse before fun, there will always be the opposite one. Tons of sudden school works that will be due on Saturday, talked about rush and cram. I've been doing nothing, well not really totally nothing, a bit lazy in doing all this due dates, i need an inspiration, a drive to finish all this things. ahahah. Well aside from all this stuffs, I've been downloading true blood, i love that show. And also Gossip girl, One Tree Hill, Ugly Betty, Grey's anatomy, Heroes!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I missed that show so much. I'm fond of that show. hahahaha! Okay enough about shows. I have to study, i mean do paper works. toodles for now! ^_____^

The Ber month

BER--the expected month of December... ofcourse I'm happy and excited about that month however not that euphoric type, because BER month is my skin out break month... It's kinda hard though because I have to go to derma now and then.. Sighs.. quite hard and challenging.. lol.. Well the usual medicines prescribed for me, like the antihisthamine, the oinments and the likes. The side effect of all this treatments-- moody,cranky. Sucks right, its hard to control it though, i mean the moody and the craky part. I've been doing my best to deal all of this upcoming emotions. I've been pissed off to one person forawhile, my friend told me not to think of it. Coz its just a waste of time..
That person didn't do anything wrong, its just that that person's reaction towards some topic or conversation pissed me off.. superb sarcastic reaction.. For no reason. WOW thats an irrational one right..
Okay.. I guess I'm thinking about it again...arghhhhh...

Aside from all of this feelings and emotions, my studies are not doing well... Well.. im doing my best to cope up especially Marketing Research subject.. :) I know i can do this.. aja! :)